While sitting at dinner one night I mentioned to Ben that I had gotten on my blog to write something but as I went to type I discovered I had nothing to write about. Nothing new or exciting had happened that anyone would have the least bit of interest in and so I logged off thinking “well at least nothing bad happens right?”. Ben suggested that I start writing about lessons I’m learning and reasons why I am so passionate about being a teacher. This would prove valuable for when I interview for teaching positions because they could visit my blog and read about a more personal side of me. I have a genius for a husband!

So then I started thinking about what I’ve been learning lately. Faith, trust and service came to my mind but the lesson that has hit home the most is the topic of being and remaining positive. As school has gone on this semester I have tried to remain positive and hopeful that all will turn out. Ben has been great for helping me not get as stressed out as I usually do. And although he might say that I still seemed overwhelmed and negative at times it has been an amazing experience for me to see all the little changes with in myself. Everyday I find something to be happy about. (Although PMS does hinder me on occasions.) Some days I have to laugh at the sequence of unfortunate events that occur but once I’m done laughing the end result ends up being a positive one and I’m on my way again to “happy thoughts”.

On my mission I had what I call an epiphany. I remember when everything I had seen on my mission came together to form the knowledge of how good people are. It was at that point that I knew why the Lord had sent his Son into the world to suffer and die. It is because people are so good. I’m not dismissing the fact that bad things happen everyday. Really bad things! But it was at that point that I could see the good in people and the good that I saw was really really good. It affected me to the extent that I can’t explain but this semester I’ve tried to transfer that perspective not only to people but events. Every minute of every day things happen and choices are made. They are made by us. Normal people trying to figure out what we are supposed to be doing. Isn’t that an amazing concept. People who have never gone through life before are running it. God puts a lot of trust in us and like a good father would He is always there to offer support, yet not make our decisions for us. WOW Life is good!

So that’s the lesson I’ve been learning the last few months. Sure there are plenty of things to get uptight and negative about but if you take a step back and see the big picture of all the good that happens everyday suddenly what you thought was horrendous isn’t so bad. I remember a quote that says, “There is nothing that is so bad it can’t be fixed with a nap.” I am a believer in naps. But more than naps I am a believer in staying positive and looking for good in all situations. I have a long way to work on this myself. My husband would probably be the first one to admit that, him being the one I always complain to. Yet I feel like I have taken a step, a step in the right direction to a more positive me.

And that is my first post on feelings.